The Demonic Cult of Anorexia Nervosa

People with anorexia  are locked into  in a mind control situation – they are walking , talking, brainwashed, hypnotized victims of the   demonic  cult of Anorexia.

Years ago there  used to  be articles  in newspapers about people that had been brainwashed by  strange cults such as the  Moonies or Scientology ,  now there is anorexia – is anorexia a strange cult ?  Is anorexia the result of being brainwashed ? Are they under some sort of mind control ?


The strange cults of the 1970s  were  all off radar in remote secret places, the  people that belonged to them were weird and  wacky   but anorexia is  mainstream ,  it  has been classified  and accepted as a “mental illness” alongside depression, schizophrenia, OCD and all the other mental illnesses,    it  is  treated  as the norm,  as part of life an unfortunate illness and  not rare. It has it’s feet firmly under the table – an imposter – a demonic entity  posing as a mental illness – clever – right there in plain sight.

We see anorexia on the catwalk, in the media,  it is promoted on the internet I’m sure many  of you reading this have been on  pro ana sites.    Twitter is full of anorexia  alongside   the plethora of  psychologists/ councilors  touting for business to make money from  victims of anorexia there are  accounts  masquerading  as anorexic females (with triggering photos)  but really their mission is to  promote  anorexia , to keep it going and to get new recruits.

Here is an  example of someone  posing  online as a teenage female Christian trying to recruit new  anorexics, telling them  to ditch Christianity and replace with Ana

Anorexia is rife in the fashion world, pick up  a glossy  fashion magazine and the models in it will be  thin – the kind of thin that most girls can’t even dream to aspire to – unless they get anorexia – because they   just don’t have that body type  –  also over the years the goal posts have been moved when it comes to  the size of the average  model    – all in favour of anorexia – how can  woman identify  with these bodies ?  There is something else that stands out – misery – have you noticed all the models have to pull a miserable face  ( as miserable as sin )  same on the catwalk – models never,  ever smile or have fun,  the brief is to  be skinny and miserable  – and they are so  young ?  Most models are around 16 years of age yet the average age of a  haute couture  customer is 53.  Anorexia isn’t associated with smiles, laughter and fun, when we think of anorexia we think of misery, fear ,  impending doom and possible death.

Are the fashion world pushing anorexia ?  I think they are yes. Here is a link to an article back in 2011, this is how the fashion world wanted their models to look like but then the people protested  coming down like a ton of bricks  via  social media on Stella MaCartney , Victoria Beckham and others who were using  anorexic models.  Victoria Beckham looks like she is anorexic  herself  therefore her criteria  when casting  models is obvs to go for her “ideal” of  skeletal skinny –  she must have people around her   to  gently point out what is a normal ,acceptable weight model , being part of a demonic anorexic cult  means she can’t  get her head round “normal  weight” only skeletal is good enough.

Rescuing a family member from a cult 

To rescue someone from a cult families often have to pay someone  to abduct their loved one against their will  from the cult  because the person has lost all will and autonomy and has no wish to leave the cult.    Then having rescued their loved one  they have to deprogramme them because they are stuck in  a kind of hypnotic trance, they need many sessions with an “exit councillor”  and may even need to go under hypnosis to target the part of the mind that the cult influenced so strongly – the subconcious, because the person’s behavior is unrecognizable to their families – gone is the familiar person they  knew and loved to be replaced by someone with a zombie like persona.

In all cults there is a leader and  the Demonic Anorexic Cult is no different it’s leader of course is  Lucifer – how many people suffering anorexia know this ?   Did  you know who you pledged allegiance to when you signed up  for massive weight loss ?  you didn’t read the small print right ?  you weren’t told about the terms and conditions  – and now you are stuck  in this mind control , a slave to Satan  ?  Did you think you would get the weight loss and not have to give anything back in return ?    All you were interested in was the weight loss,  you were prepared to go along with anything,   you would give anything,  to look like the thin people and celebrities posing  on social media  that you looked so fat in comparison to.

Let’s  explore that word “comparison” because  one of  the Ten Commandments covers it

Thou Shalt  Not Covert thy neigbour’s ox / car / husband/ house/  …..BODY    ?

if we don’t compare ourselves to others – if we don’t covert someone else’s slim body  if we accept who we are then  we are less likely to succumb to envy  resulting in  strict diets and possibly  anorexia.  Besides those people with slim bodies also have problems ? just different problems?  Don’t let social media wind you up ? You are beautiful in your own way don’t compare yourself.

If you do want to lose weight the safe way   is  to simply walk – walk 2-3 miles a day and you can eat what you want , just make sure you take an iron tablet to give you the stamina.

And remember  if   you hear a friendly whisper  with promises of weight loss – don’t be fooled there will be a price to pay and it could be your life.





















Anorexia, Lucifer and demons

So what is  the connection between Anorexia, Lucifer and demons  ?

First  lets consider Lucifer , when we think of Lucifer , Satan, the devil whatever  you want to call him , we think of a scary  monster with horns and red eyes but Lucifer was an attractive male angel – an archangel.  He was charming  and persuasive he persuaded 200 other angels to  reject God   he did this by offering better positions  if they worked for him and rewards, they were so convinced by Lucifer that they joined him  in his rebellion against God their creator.

So  Lucifer and his gang  went against God  and  failed miserably then   were  thrown out of heaven.  But they didn’t go to a burning pit of hell,  they instead are amongst us living in the atmosphere that we live in.  If we could see them we would see dark clouds or shadows moving in the air – air is their  element  and the climate around them is weird and sinister .   They   turned  from angels into demons and  instead of working for God they are  now working against Him, their mission is to turn as many people as they can away from God.  Everyone who is separate from God is a legitimate target for them, but anyone who  believes and follows Jesus is off limits  – they can’t touch believers in Christ  – this is  mindblowing  isn’t it ? Yet hardly anyone knows it.  Our love for Jesus protects us from demons and satan , I wish I knew this when I saw the film The Exorcist .

I believe / know that these demons are the cause of  the anorexia  epidemic today.  The demons  approach   their victims with  a  friendly voice or present as urges within the  host / victim which the victim will “experience” as   their own “instinct” especially if they are very young.    Promises – of weight loss, of companionship of fun are offered,  they know  their victims  desires and they play on them, you could even say they know the victim better than they know themselves.  Demons were once angels remember so they have a unique and special skill set.

demons are dark shadows or dark spiky clouds in the air around us

The main point I am making here is that demons don’t  approach  as scary monsters they make overtures in a friendly persuasive manner , for many anorexic teenage victims “Ana” comes across as a “popular girl” type of voice (albeit a bit hissy )  the sort  of friend that everyone at school   wants on their side.  I have  wondered what gender Karen Carpenters anorexic demon pretended to be – I  tend to think the demon posed as a male – the type of male she seemed to want  and was  vulnerable to .   Demons aka  “Ana”  or ED are  a great support and confidant in the beginning  it’s only after  it gets a tight grip that it reveals it’s true nature , then it will be screeching at it’s victim to not eat , to exercise like mad and even to kill themselves,  anorexia has a high death rate and many if not most of these deaths are from suicide. Ana will urge  victims to cut themselves, to  throw themselves under a bus, to hang themself saying they are worthless , fat etc,  a shocking number of  weight restored anorexics kill themselves too , so distressed are they to have the dreaded  weight on – it goes against everything Ana has instilled in them.   Demons leave destruction and death in their wake  that  is their mission,  they  get their  victims to kill themselves slowly by starvation or suicide.  Also they work together as a team here is a post from a teenage girl saying how she had one demon who went  away and was replaced by another, that could be the case or maybe the demon changed it’s voice to a different  gender.

I can’t say that I have experienced the truth  about Lucifer and his story  but I have had a run in with demons on a few occasions  now and I KNOW without doubt  they exist.  I accept  the  Biblical  explanation of the origin of demons,  the alternative is  denial by atheist societies  that demons  along with God and Jesus  even exist and  any challenge to  this narrative is met with accusations of insanity.   Some say demons only existed in medieval times  – why would they say that ? I think  maybe they just want to make out Christianity  was part of the very distant past but not the future .   Scientists can’t explain the origins of the universe even Stephen Hawking  can’t,  I once  met a  vicar  who was a top science University  lecturer and he gave up his job as a scientist to became a vicar because  science  couldn’t explain everything for him

Demons can  move in and out of the victim they are fluid,  but keep well hidden,  the medical profession  insist the ED / Ana  voice  some people with anorexia  hears is the person’s own “inner voice “.   If they are prescribed anti psychotic drugs to drown out the  anorexic voice it doesn’t have any effect on Ana because the anorexic voice is real whereas schizophrenic voices are audial  hallucinations manifested from a chemical imbalance / mental illness.

As I have stated on my home page I don’t want to go against traditional therapy which is essential and I respect and value that.  I just want to put forward my point that you can fight (alongside traditional therapy) anorexia through prayer – I don’t mean you have to go to church and become a goody two shoes – that isn’t what Christianity is about.  I would just like you to consider Jesus as a powerful  resource, a very influential friend – of course he is more than that He is  the son of God  but to start off just think   of Him as a friend   looking out for you , He really cares about you  and  Ana is  terrified of Jesus  she is toast when Jesus gets on  on your case.  All demons know who Jesus is – everything is the spirit world does – if demons come across Jesus they flee they are scared of even His name .  If you invited Jesus into your heart Ana would immediately be evicted because both cannot reside in the same place.  You probably have never considered Jesus as a shield against Ana before and why would you – Jesus is portrayed as a loser in our increasingly secular society.  But if you ignore  the bad PR of Jesus and ask Him into your heart  you will be surprised at how powerful and good  He really is.

I have to point out that even if you get rid of Ana  you still have a very messed up mindset  left to deal with.  People who chose recovery need an awful lot of support , they can’t feed themselves because they are so used to denying themselves for Ana.  So  help with portion size is important and a meal plan has to be adhered to for as long as it takes. Another danger is bulimia, 40% of anorexics turn into bulimics – they start eating again but can’t stop – this is where Mia steps in – she wants to ruin by shame of overeating .   Also because  Ana brainwashes her victims to think they are overweight when they are really  ultra skinny people in recovery will find it incredibly difficult to be weight restored , many commit suicide at this point.

Ana works on victims   at a  deep subconscious  level and to change this warped mindset I think you have to go to that  deep subconscious level to fix it and the best way to do that is through hypnotherapy so  if you can find a good hypnotherapist – which isn’t easy and they are expensive I think this is the best way to erase all Ana’s destructive habits and replace with good ones.

So recovery isn’t easy but it is the only way  – the alternative is living with Ana for maybe the rest of your life – a life spent under the control of Ana?   They say anorexia is about control and that is true but it is Ana who has the control not the host.


Anorexia Ana is a demon imposter

So what does Ana look like ?

Anorexia is a separate entity  – a demonic entity  (sounds insane right ?)  that sneaks into people’s mind and gets a grip – this is what I have found out about it  and this is  what it looks like , there are 2 types of  anorexic demons – dark shadows or dark clouds the texture of the cloud is incredibly weird, this is a sketch I did but I think the texture of the cloud is a bit more spikey than this.



I found this  interesting post by Katie Hill about how she came to draw her eating disorder – she had anorexia and created a  brilliant   graphic novel about it called Lighter than my Shadow which was / is a huge success – her demon cloud IS spikey.


The other type of demon that causes anorexia is a dark shadow type apparently they are often  around us but we can’t see them – some gifted people can see them, I don’t profess to have seen one but I know they exist.  Recently there was an article in the Daily Mail about a young girl who got anorexia – sadly nothing unusual about that – what was unusual was that she described her anorexia as being caused by  a demon dark shadow  that followed her around and told her she was fat, she  even drew a picture of it

this is the first time I have seen a mainstream newspaper address the issue of a demon being behind anorexia – a real demon that is – the comments section was closed  after 10 comments so there wasn’t much room for discourse, most comments said Lucy had schizophrenia because she heard the voice of “Ana” but anti psychotic drugs that are used to treat schizophrenia  can’t quash the voice of Ana because Ana isn’t an auditory hallucination , Ana is real.  And if they did a thorough  scientific investigation into this they would unveil the truth but not much money is being invested into anorexia research or other  eating disorders (yet billions are being made from them).

here is my  attempt at drawing a dark shadow demon harassing it’s victim


“you don’t deserve to eat you greedy COW!”

Another point is this –  people who have schizophrenia hear a different range of voices there is no unifying voice that they all hear , telling them all to do the  same thing .  But  the voice of Ana  and ED  is  the same all around the world  and it tells it’s victims the same thing – don’t eat , exercise more   also it tells them to kill themselves – and many do –  the biggest cause of death for anorexics is suicide  but the statistics are  unavailable and often a suicide  death will be filed under anorexia as cause of death  rather than suicide.

Many people who suffer from anorexia don’t tell anyone about the voice of Ana in case they are thought of as psychotic or insane,  medical professionals say that the  anorexic voice is the persons own “inner voice”. Manchester University are doing some research into the anorexic voice and I am looking forward to seeing the results (but not holding my breath).  Of course not every one gets a voice, many experience anorexia as compulsions – they feel  overwhelmingly  compelled to restrict food to  over exercise – some  mistake these compulsions as part of themselves  and not an outside entity that got in and hijacked their mind, this is especially true if someone gets it when they are very young – it feels like an” instinct” but it isn’t it is the  behavior of someone brainwashed, hypnotized  by evil Ana a real demon – who would’ve thought it – the truth is stranger than the fiction.  But a true investigation into anorexia isn’t happening in my opinion – people say they don’t understand it and leave it at that , when my daughter got this weird illness I really wanted to get to the truth of it ,  and I didn’t buy the explanation the medical world was giving , I digged deep and I found it.


Then you will know the truth and the Truth will set you Free

John 8:32

Anorexia Brainwashing

How  demon Ana sneaks in and takes over In this post I want to go into how the demons behind  anorexia take over  minds and get such a tight grip on them  that  victims mistake these invading, controlling entities  as an inherent  part of themselves.  Obviously if the person is very young it is so much easier for the demons to pass  off  their presence as part and parcel of the person’s inner being.

I refereed to anorexia as a manifestation of demonic entities  and I wasn’t joking,   I realize  it sounds bonkers but I found this to be the very strange truth of   what really lies behind  anorexia .    If we could see these demons they  look like dark clouds or shadows. Writer and illustrator   Katie Green depicts an anorexic demon  very well in her graphic novel Lighter than my Shadow – her demon is of the dark cloud variety ,   I was really excited about reading  this book but I ended up disappointed   because it focused on sexual abuse rather than exploring the  source  and nature of anorexia.

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It seems   the therapy Katie  received   led only to  an acceptance  that  the sexual abuse she  was  victim to was tied up with her anorexia – even though the sexual abuse happened when she already had  anorexia.   After an exciting first half – for me –  it  came to  a vague and  inconclusive ending.

Why do therapists have to merge  sexual abuse and anorexia ?  The two don’t always go together, linking them  can  even have disastrous consequences   as in the case of Jenny Hendricks  which leads me onto another book I want to mention –  Slim to None by Jenny and Gordon Hendricks.


Jenny suffered and died at 25 years old from anorexia , her father Gordon Hendricks compiled  Jenny’s diaries after her death  and based this book around them supported by his writing, this is a harrowing read yet I couldn’t put it down.  Jenny comes through her diaries so strongly and Gordon writes so well.     I recommend this book because it is so     truthful albeit tragic.  Jenny comes across as a lovely  person, a regular American girl who was dissatisfied with her body  from a  young age,  she was diagnosed with anorexia when she was 14 years old but had been living with it for quite a long time previous to the diagnosis.

  Jenny is a perfect example of someone who was taken over by a demonic entity as a  child  and grew up  with this  controlling  demon inside her  and sadly  mistook it   as part of herself, these demons are so sneaky and evil they know how to trick the  mind, how to get a grip and  also how to stay well hidden from the human eye.

Jenny had a psychiatrist who was a follower of Freud   she kept on at  Jenny for  weeks, months even  to try to  remember any sexual abuse in her past and then linked   these vague recollections  to Jenny’s anorexia. It seems the demon took advantage of this  and gave Jenny really ugly,  disturbing  impressions of sexual abuse that  tortured her mind adding  to the already  existing torture  which was  the daily  terror  of weight gain and eating  .    Jenny  later  admitted  that she wasn’t  even  sure if  any sexual abuse really took place.  The psychiatrist also recommended that  Jenny should stop seeing   her mother, so Jenny’s mother stopped visiting Jenny just  when  she needed her most .

 Some medical professionals (even NHS)  have looked to dominant mothers to be the cause of anorexia ,  when I first took my daughter to the GP with anorexia he asked  me ( in an  unmistakably admonishing way ) to wait in the   waiting room so he could talk to her  without me.     In Katie Green’s  book Lighter than My Shadow   she too is   advised by therapists to    break all ties to her mother , thereby isolating her and giving  free reign to the demon to strengthen it’s grip.

  One of the first things the demon does when it gets a hold is to isolate the person from it’s loved ones – starting with the mother , I know this from experience of my daughter’s anorexia – she used to head off to the loft where she could be alone with the demon and exercise like mad.

Jenny’s anorexia demon controlled her through compelling urges although she does mention an inner voice sometimes in her diary. Demons present as compelling urges or  for others it is an actual voice aka Ana.

Jenny  was from a Christian family and considered herself a Christian – later in the book when she was near her death she prays and speaks to God – but not Jesus – I am convinced that as Christians we really do have to have close daily personal contact with Jesus as the way to God – if Jenny had prayed to Jesus she could’ve beaten the demon anorexia because these demons are  terrified of Jesus  – and they all know who He is too, but she focused on God.

 She made  friends  at one stage with some  Christians who had recovered from anorexia through Christ and for a while it seemed she was on the right path but they freaked her out one day when she visited their house,  they were setting the  scene for an exorcism – her exorcism – she ran out of the house never to return  and that was the end of that.  So sad because all that is required for an  exorcism  (I don’t like that word really it is too theatrical and conjures up weird goings on )   is a belief in Jesus, you don’t need to be a priest in a black robe with a crucifix either  all you have to do is pray in Jesus’s name – it says in the Bible that anyone who believes and follows Jesus has the authority to cast out demons – and it is true.   Another little known  but mind blowing truth  is that if you are close to Jesus demons can’t get you.

Another point is this – if Jenny’s  Christian friends  were set on driving out the demon that was slowly  killing Jenny then the demon controlling  Jenny  would know this and alert Jenny to get well away from them.

 In fact I had an awkward situation similar to this recently  – a friend – not a close friend – a young guy , a school friend of my daughter really  – his girlfriend has anorexia – he was telling me about it one day, he told me how his girlfriend saw this dark shadow in the corner of her room every night, well I bumped into him with his girlfriend on a street in town and chatted to  them  I said  I could help to get rid of it for her – she got into a state and she said the demon was screaming at her very loud and could I leave her alone – I felt really bad and now  I am very hesitant to intervene personally.

So why is Jesus never acknowledged as the cure of anorexia ? Why is He being kept out ? After all UK is a Christian country and I get the impression  the  Queen truly believes in Jesus.   Admittedly it is alot to take onboard – that demons are causing anorexia – it’s laughable even  and if you asked me my opinion on demons five years ago I wouldn’t have had  one but when your child is turning into a skeleton in front of your eyes you  will consider anything.

 The eating disorder industry is worth billions probably  even trillions – hospitals, residential facilities,   doctors, nurses,  psychiatrists,  psychologists, therapists, dietitians, catering contracts etc etc  all cost money  albeit  there is  a shockingly  low recovery rate.   But    the most shocking fact of all   is the lack of research into anorexia

They  say anorexia is about control  and that’s true but it is the demon that is doing the controlling.  What compounds the situation and makes it  even worse is when someone tells the health professionals caring for them  of a voice in their head 24/7 telling them not to eat and to exercise more they will be told that the voice they are hearing is their own “inner voice”. They insist this mad angry voice belongs to  the patient  – how confusing and unhelpful is that ?  How are you supposed to fight it if it is part of you ?

Anorexia is an outside entity that gets in and can be got out but I have to add that it will not be happy ever after  straight away  even when you have evicted Ana.   Unfortunately the  demon’s brainwashing remains even after it has gone so it is still a daily struggle and sometimes  a skilled hypnotherapist may be required to erase the disordered warped thought process the demon gave you such as thinking you look like a sumo wrestler when you are weight restored and you will be all at sea when it comes to eating and portion sizes,  so support is essential  .  But you won’t have the nasty voice goading you on and you will feel a peace that has eluded you for so long – beware also that the demon will try to get back in – all you have to say to it is Go away in the name of Jesus -and  it will disappear  but  you don’t have to take my word for it  try it  yourself and see.

The reason why recovery from anorexia is so elusive

The reason  why recovery from anorexia is so elusive, so long, so frustrating  and so difficult is because the demon anorexia (aka Ana) permanently brainwashes it’s victims –  permanently  but  not irreversibly.

That’s why there are hundreds of thousands of people stuck in recovery, unable to move on  – they may (or may not)  have got rid of Ana but they are still brainwashed from Ana ‘s  destructive mindset –  only hypnotherapy  seems to offer a solution that can   wipe away all Ana’s warped, disordered thoughts once and for all leaving the mind  free  and able to lead  that longed for  elusive “normal life”.

Hypnotherapy is a facinating subject and I suggest you do your own research  -here is a link to an article  I found about how anorexia brainwashes it’s victims  the writer doesn’t subscribe to Ana being a demon  (like I do) but many anorexics may relate to it

Most people  trying to  recover from  anorexia with  the best will in the world  seem to find themselves  tied to  a treadmill of the same disordered , destructive thought process  day in day out.  The internet is full of  recovery blogs  and yet  many if not most are seemingly getting nowhere and  consequently  just live a half life, unable to get  closure with Ana and move on .   Healthcare professionals  even offer the conclusion that you will be fighting anorexia  for the rest of your life ?  Hypnotherapy could potentially change all that  in a few hours.

Hypnosis for  eating disorders make perfect sense and it is big business, it especially  works  well for bulimia, but  judging by the testimonials  it doesn’t seem to  have the same success rate with anorexia ?   I think the reason why  is this –  if Ana – a demonic entity – is  active and still controlling  the anorexic  person ,presenting as strong urges or an actual voice,   then hypnosis is pointless because Ana will block and counter the hypnotherapist’s efforts making it ineffective  and a waste of money .

You see the first thing to ascertain in  a person recovering from  anorexia  is this – is  Ana  still inside controlling them or not – in or out –  simple ?

And so  it is  very important to evict  Ana   first before  embarking on   hypnotherapy sessions. Hypnotherapy can work  well on disordered thinking left over from Ana’a control but it can’t get rid of Ana    –   only Jesus can scare off Ana  no other name has  the same effect – Ana will laugh in the face of parents, friends and family but when Ana comes up against Jesus it’s game over  .

You have by now realised  that  I believe / I know that anorexia is a demonic entity , yes  it sounds insane  and if you asked me 3 years ago if I believed in demons   I would probably have  said no, but when your  daughter is turning into a skeleton before your eyes as mine was you would  be prepared to consider anything.  I wanted to get to the root  of her anorexia  and I wasn’t buying the given causes,  one day I said to my daughter “What’s driving you – it’s demonic?”  after saying this    I looked on the internet and came across 2 or 3 people referring to anorexia as demonic oppression – this is the guy who helped me the most



I don’t go to church but I do believe in Jesus so it was natural  for me to pray with my daughter to get rid of the anorexia demon and it was easy to get it out –  I don’t remember  an actual moment when it left,  but my daughter did have a dream around that time and in the dream  she said I was shouting at a dark cloud.  When my daughter ( Leila) was free of the demon (which  looking back I think was the morning after the dream ) she said that she felt deflated – Ana  was her only friend  and  she actually missed the demon as a constant companion   – this sounds very wrong doesn’t it – but she was telling the truth and this should be acknowledged – many anorexics want Ana in their life  ?  Some even celebrate it – pro Ana – and seem to taunt others trying to recover with “triggering” images on social media  which  obviously hinders recovery  and drags them back into  destructive anorexic  behavior . Anorexia  can be  very  competitive too – they  are all vying to be the thinnest   because Ana wants it that way Ana winds them up .

If you go on a fast  it does make you high I have experienced it myself and this is nothing to do with anorexia but Ana exploits  this euphoria for her own gain – she makes out the “fasting high ” is her doing  and keeps pushing you to get the fating high.

Another point I want to make is this – demons that have been evicted do try to get back in, they will appear when you are vulnerable  but saying to them Go away in the name of Jesus gets rid of them they simply flee when they hear the name Jesus – no other name has this  effect.

So I couldn’t have got rid of the demon Ana and it’s destruction of my daughter   without Jesus’s name and power that’s for sure  so all thanks to Him  and  Jesus’s help  is  absolutely free of charge which is awesome when you consider the ED industry is making billions   from people’s misery .

So  the demonic entity  was gone  from my daughter – which was  such a relief   also it was so weird , shocking     to find out and nail the true cause of this horrible affliction which had been   the worst thing to ever happen to us as a family  – but   it wasn’t quite “happy ever after ”  because even though Ana was no longer  controlling Leila she wasn’t back to normal either  regarding eating , body image  and food.  It seems all recovering anorexics will still  think normal weight is mammoth, many even  try to commit suicide at this point – the weight gain makes them feel that bad – so  embedded is Ana’s mantra of  ultra thin is best .   My daughter   has been discharged from CAMHS and  is doing really well  but she still isn’t right. So I am currently looking for a hypnotherapist  to reach her subconscious level,  this is where Ana worked on her and this is where you have go  to undo Ana’s destructive  mindset and reprogramme, reboot  the subconscious mind, otherwise you are still under Ana’a spell like a when a stage hypnotist puts someone under hypnosis to repeat the same task  – which they will do again and again until he brings them out of it .  This is why recovery is so hard the  you are stuck in an hypnotic trance.


How anorexia first begins

Anorexia often begins when   someone  is despairing over their body , wishing they were slimmer and  getting really worked up about it , they have probably compared themselves (unfavorably)  to a celebrity.  A typical victim of anorexia is a teen girl , a perfectionist maybe,  possibly lonely,  often  unhappy with the adult female form she is  developing into .   So they resolve to do something about their weight and to go on a diet –  this is where anorexia comes in.    Many anorexics refer to their illness as a demon called Ana and here is the really strange bit – anorexia is indeed a  real demon – if you could see them they look like a dark cloud or shadow – and they sneak into their victims  consciousness presenting as compulsions or an actual voice.

So as the potential victims of anorexia  are resolving to skip lunch the demon  will sneak  in  a suggestion such as “why not skip breakfast too” this will present as a strong urge or an actual voice. If the victim is really young they can mistake the thought / urge that the demon sends them as their own  “instinct” and will go along with it.  When Ana the  demon presents as a voice it is usually the voice of a popular girl the kind of friend most teens follow,  so these demons are expert at getting in and when they are in and the victim is listening an agreement seems to be made between them  because Ana expects full commitment and in return the victim will be slim and perfect. It’s like Ana the demon is grooming   her victim.

In the beginning  anorexia  is often a heady , exciting time for the victim, because the victim seems to be empowered and losing weight and therefore feels  more attractive, successful, popular  and lovable.

My own daughter  Leila was  a  prime target for  anorexia, she had been bullied and was spending every lunchtime in the school library alone and  isolated.   When Ana approached her  with support and solutions for weight loss she seemed to be  the  much longed for friend for Leila  and   when Leila went to the dreaded PE lesson it was a  different experience from the usual  humiliation  of being last to be picked for a team – this time she had a companion  – albeit an invisible one – who was telling her the bullies were fat and disgusting and she – Leila – was better than them ? I couldn’t have done a better job myself of empowering her  ? Ana was her only ally against the school  bullies.

So companionship  and bonding figures highly  in the beginning of anorexia  – and even later on anorexics are reluctant  to let her go –  the attraction of that is  obvious especially for someone with no friends, and loves being slim,  Ana is always there.  But lets not get carried away with how nice Ana is because of course really she is  a nasty piece of work  and is only  being nice to get in and take over.  Ana’s mission is to get her victims to stave themselves to death   –  we should though  be aware of the bonding process and of  the promises that occur  in the beginning,  Ana is so nice , so friendly and such a support at first it’s only later she she reveals she is a demon from hell – literally.